| I have felt reborn every morning these past week. My hope is getting stronger for what he has for me and not what I think I should have the light is brighter yet ::EDIT:: I need to make more things out of cardboard. ::END EDIT: |
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| Damien Jurado Dave Bazan Rocky Votolato The Frames Arcade Fire 238 A Northern Chorus Bright Eyes Waterdeep The Mountain Goats |
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| I am trying so hard to shake this off. I have been in this depression for so long now and I am way past tired. Can I ever really get out of this? I want off this ride. No really stop. Let me off this thing. Please. Maybe this is good. True happiness can't really exist out side of a real understanding of pain. Man.. Maybe I will be really happy one day then. Or maybe I am just Job reincarnated. I mean, where was i when he created the heavens and the earth.
True salvation cannot exist apart from being saved from one's depths. I need to be saved from this. It is very apparent I need a rope, a way out.
Papa, please save me. Papa please save me from myself. I don't love myself enough to stop running. But I still cling to the hope that you are running steadfastly after me. And eventually, after I am too tired to run any longer, I will fall, and you will pick me up from the ground and hold me in your big arms. I will cry and bury myself in your chest, too ashamed of what I am, and you will lift my head up to yours, look into my eyes, smile, and all will be whole.
I love you Papa. Keep running. |
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| I am getting a tattoo... and an ipod. |
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